For almost five months sitting and shifting through reports for someone active in field is like ………… a player confined to dressing room seeing the game on television. Truth is you fret and get irritated every moment you are confined to your seat. When the days extend to months you get extremely depressed and blame everyone for your state including God.I think it is also right time to go through your actions with a keen eye to see where you went wrong and what little changes you can adopt in your game to be successful when you get that elusive chance again.
Well I am going through that phase in my life when I am confined to desk to analyzing reports and raising questions on my colleagues and all this while passed through those motions of getting irritated and being depressed. Now after months when I am required to go back to the field again to lead a new operation I have taken to analyzing my actions when I was in the field and trying to find out where and what actions were not good enough or needed different approaches. Staying outside can at times give you a better perspective of things that happen and that should happen
This almost reminds me of my school days when we remembered the colours of rainbow by VIBGYOR. Writing just this perhaps completes my post of daily prompt as I have mentioned all the colours the prompt wanted…………….. hahahahhahaha
We keep doing new things from the very beginning of our existence and when in our mid-life, which some call mature years, tend to avoid newer things for the fear of failure. Well I wanted to try out cooking, old style Indian cooking especially ethnic Bengali cuisine nearly two months back. Cooking is considered Lady’s domain, though some of the best chefs across the world are men, nobody took me seriously, Trial and error method after returning from office when Mrs. Crooked Eyebrows would leave the kitchen to me resulted in atleast one or two dishes which were appreciated by her. By the way she is a very good cook and master in both ethnic and regular cooking.
Now many of you may be thinking what is so out of element to cook. See I have lived a life out of suitcase for nearly two decades eating mostly in restaurants and mess. Packed lunch or dinner and eating by the roadside eateries is so monotonous and all the food that you eat tastes almost the same that at times I used to prefer having only milk or fruit juice for days together. I have forgotten the taste of food that my grandma or mother used to make. The wish of experimenting and finding back that taste made me to take up cooking and to be truthful it seemed like a journey back in time to get back those flavours.
I have got back my courage to do something other then reading those stupid figures and writing those stupid letters starting with ‘This is to inform you ………’
Hey I missed out out on the other thing that I started perhaps in September 2012. I started this blog writing and have few friends here too. Now I plan to write a story sometime soon and hope will not bore you all…………..
The problem with being honest is either you are honest or you are dishonest. Now from where does this being too honest comes. Honesty by degrees of being honest is something that only we can make up in our mind. If it does hurt me then that is being too honest and if it hurts others but brings gain to me then it is alright to be little dishonest. This must be idea that rose in the mind of Hitler or Mussolini so they must have been honest to different degrees but never too honest.
Come on either you are honest or you are dishonest er better word liar. Advantage being a liar is that for covering one lie you have to make five more lies and it grows on you in geometric proportion and soon you are in web of lies. As we keep repeating lies we start believing our lies as truth. So the need for confession goes and we are then in the midst of our own created world of lies. To the faithful then the need to go to Church / Temple / Mosque ends as the chances of Ultimate Truth ends because lies rule.
Honestly honesty is the best policy only for the best guys/gals for us there is an option of White Lie. However people cannot change the truth but truth can change people. Swami Vivekananda said, “Mark you, let us all be honest. If we cannot follow the ideal, let us confess our weakness, but not degrade it; let not any try to pull it down.” So come on let us be honest and just honest…………..too honest ?????
Happy New Year to all my Friends. Now we have to look back at this date on January 2, 2015 and see what we have written or how far we have progressed. Where would I like to see myself ?????????? Well throughout our growing up days our parents wanted us to grow up like an normal man. My superiors in job always wanted me to grow or act in certain manner. Now if the Daily Prompt wants me to grow up in a certain manner or progress then sorry I am not going to do that.
Now that my ranting on anybody asking me to change or grow ends here is what I would like to see. I always wanted to be a man who can Compromise anything but Truth. I want to have the courage to be Truthful and be leave anything and everything for TRUTH and ONLY TRUTH. Difficult to be totally truthful come what may. Well let me give it a try and pray for all your good wishes that I may not even speak a white lie.